OK -- the kids are sound asleep. It's only a little after 8:00. My tummy is tied in knots because even though I am so excited for Sam to start school -- I feel like I am about to cry because I am losing my little man. Maybe a little over dramatic but I just can't help it. I am so used to him being with me all the time. Last year he was at preschool but that was only 3 hours a day. Now -- from when he gets on the bus to when I see that silly little grin running home towards me -- will be about 8 hours.
I know this is what he really needs. He is a little bit of a momma's boy. A lot according to Robin. This past weekend he was at Grandma's house. He saw a picture of me on the wall and started crying because he missed me. As much as I love him for being so sweet -- I want him to be independent and happy when he is away from me too.
Last Wednesday we had an open house at his school. I heard quite a few Mom's saying, "I am ready for school to start." All I keep thinking about is the time I am going to miss with him. Going from getting to spend the entire day goofing around, swimming, playing legos and snuggling with him to cramming in homework, supper and all the necessaries in before an ealry bedtime is going to suck!
Maybe it's also what I need to better appreciate the time I do have with him. Now I can get all the housework finished while Ally is napping (Yeah right!) and don't have to feel guilty because Sam has been sacked in front of PBS kids for over an hour. Not that he minds at all.
I know every mom has to go through this. Whether it's kindergarten or the first time at daycare I am sure it's the same feelings. Unless -- I home school. . . Just kidding. That little guy is way too social. Tonight he was trying on his clothes for the first day of school. He told me he was going to comb his hair just right and spray on some of Daddy's cologne. And of course he wanted to be sure Hannah was in his class again! Then he started doing his "Move It" dance. You know the song -- I like to Move it Move it, You like to move it move it! The video might take a couple minutes to download but it is so funny. Of course -- this is coming from a biased perspective!
I know that he is gong to be an awesome kindergartner (if that's a word). And I am sure that within a few weeks it will be a new routine and life will be normal again. And actually now that I have blogged it all out the knots in my tummy have untied. At least until the bus pulls up tomorrow morning. . .
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AHHH...no worries Cybil. The first is always the hardest!! And don't feel like you can't cry...I cried like a baby when I saw Marissa get on the bus...then I followed the bus the whole two blocks to school and then cried when she got off the bus. I walked her into class and then cried when I had to leave her. All that and she had been in daycare since she was 2. It is an emotional time!! I even got a little teary eyed this morning saying good bye to her and she is in 1st grade this year. They are our babies..what are you going to do!! If you need a shoulder to cry on you know my number!!
Thank you for letting me know I am not the only crazy mother out there!!!
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